So it’s nearly 2017 and I physically don’t know where this year has gone. I remember it being back in January and being so optimistic over what this year would hold for me. I finished education, I sat my last exams, and I honestly never thought I would have conquered everything that I have this year. Nevertheless, I wanted to write a small post reflecting on this year- including the ups, downs, and everything in between.
I think this is one of those years that I’ll always look back on in the future and think, “wow. I made it.” I’m not talking about materialistic things, rather that I have achieved some of my own personal goals and wow… I am overwhelmed at everything that I has come from this year.
I have had my fair share of ‘lows’ this year. If you have been following my blog since July, you will probably be aware of some of the events that have occurred- my mental health being one of them. It’s been a scary sort of year, but one that has definitely made me stronger as a person.
For instance, I can’t believe that I can actually sit here and say that I am currently confident in who I am. I have always been a self conscious person. From worrying about my body size, how I look, and simply who I am as a person. I have grown to accept that who I am is simply me. 100% genuine me. I’m not perfect, and I’m not the prettiest dime in the box; but beauty is subjective and I should take confidence in the idea that I may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but I am someone’s. Bottom line: confidence is fridggen’ empowering when you finally get there.
I have also made some of the most amazing friends over the past year. I discussed this topic in a blog post not so long ago, but friendship is such a fundamental part of my life. Since going from having not one single friend a few years ago, to a group of 20 odd is ridiculously crazy and honestly… I still wonder how I deserved such an amazing bunch of supportive, and simply amazing friends. To everyone who has gone above and beyond for me this year, thank you. And thank you for sticking around (even at my dorkiest and dumbest moments. No seriously).
And of course, this year, this little important ‘journal’ of my life just so happened to appear on the internet for the whole world to see. Yes, I’m talking about my blog. When I first started blogging, I honestly thought one person would read my blog and no one would care about what I ramble about. My blog was literally a spontaneous idea at 10pm at night when I was feeling so low, and I never in a million years expected to continue blogging for a month- never mind nearly six. It’s safe to say though that I find comfort in what I write here, and sharing it so anyone and everyone can relate. It’s probably one of the best things to happen to me this year in my own mental progress- and hey, who knows what next year will hold for me and my blog.
For now, I am looking back on 2016 with the most humble attitude. What a learning curve this year has been. I mean, I actually finished A Levels this year, got a job, went back to London and actually took care of myself for once. What a year this has been- and despite everything, it’s also been pretty overwhelming in a good way. Not everything negative that goes on in your life has to stay as a negative, some things can change your life and mindset for the positive.
From me to you, have a happy / safe / healthy 2017. It’s never too late to make this one of the best years yet- I have realised that life doesn’t go on forever. Live for yourself, but stay kind to others. Have fun. And actually live for once. You’ll be amazed at what a difference that mindset can make.
Love and happiness always,