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An overflow of words

September 17, 2016


Whatever comes to mind. When sat at my iMac trying to write endless posts about what goes on in my life and the world around me; I came up with this concept of an overflow of words- which is exactly what this blog post is going to be about.

The past week has been an important learning curve for me. Whilst I have beaten myself up and struggled to find who I am again, I have also learnt how to get my self confidence back. I am who I am, and as much as it upsets me when people hate me; I cannot help who I am fundamentally and I am extremely proud of the person I am turning into. Life is a learning process, and I am learning more and more every day.

When writing about my thoughts and feelings, I also like to pour my overflow of words into the concept of love. I am completely drawn in by the whole idea of love- and that mainly happens unintentionally. Love is this amazing, overpowering connection of human affection and it’s something we take for granted every day. I mainly use my past experiences to write little pieces of poetry, and although this is a piece which is far from perfect, it is something that jumps out at me when I talk about this very concept.

You made me the angriest, the saddest and yet the happiest. You were like the calm sea and the storm all at once.

Pretty cliche metaphor right? Well, have you ever loved someone who you feel is unlovable? If you take anything away from this post at all, I hope you love like it’s the only thing you know how to. Embrace your feelings. Remind people their loved- whether that’s your partner, friend, family member, even your pet goldfish, or anything in between. I regret putting my guard up when it comes to loving someone. I pretend I don’t love them so I don’t get hurt. Let it happen. It’s natural, it’s okay and it’s totally normal. 

And then we have an overflow of words about my life philosophy. How I live is pretty simple- love, be kind and compassionate, forgive, and try to look forward always. If I am going to live this life, I am going to make it the best it can be. A lot of people don’t understand me as a person, and that’s okay. I like being unique. I like the fact that I’m blind in one eye, or I have the dorkiest personality. I like how I thrive off meeting new people and making new friends. This is genuinely me. Everything you read about on this blog is me, my thoughts and my life. 

Maybe i’ll write this and include no punctuation

so the reader can just concentrate on the words

and that’s it

the meaning behind this piece of writing

the fact that mental health is still stigmitised

or we stll live in a world with patriarchy and inequality

quiet

the hush of someone so insecure in themselves due to the pressure

the pressure

of not being good enough

pretty enough

and just like there’s no punctuation used in

this

small

piece

of

writing

maybe this world can change

one

person

at

a

time.

beauty.

equality.

love.

kindness.

compassion.

They deserve grammar.

And the main reason behind my overflow of words? To free myself. To apologise for hurting you, or for wanting to go back in time but not being able to. For admitting that I can still be happy in myself, but also miss the past. This “you” I am referring to could be anyone. In fact, it could refer to everyone in my life right now. This is my escape, because the truth is, I will never stop caring about the people around me. I will never stop embracing the shiz out of who I am. I will never feel guilty about my emotions because that’s what makes me human. That’s what makes me feel alive.

Missing someone is a lot deeper than just missing the memories if you actually valued them. It’s about missing them as a person, and missing caring. Everything else that comes with it. 

My overflow of words is a way of freedom for my mind. Maybe I should open my mind more and listen.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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  1. I love this post. I actually began keeping a journal last year and it has improved my life drastically seeing as it gives me a place to write down everything I’m feeling and doing and dreaming of so that I can get it off my mind and free myself from it. Putting things down in words is one of the most important things I’ve learned this year. Never feel bad for your overflow of words or feelings, at least you don’t bottle them up!

  2. I enjoyed reading this. It’s great that you’re able to share how you’ve approached a new learning curve and express yourself. It’s also a positive to hear that you’ve found more confidence in yourself.

    Good for you, so you should!

    Thank you for sharing.

    Natasha x

  3. Love this post! Being happy with yourself and confident is so important but insanely difficult. Writing helps so much, whether it’s a blog or a journal – it’s really cathartic!

    Dani | flourishingfreelancer.com

  4. Wow this is incredible! Your writing is amazing, and I love the poetry! It really made me take a step back and think. I’m pretty proud of who I am, and I need to remind myself not everyone will like me or what I do, but I can’t please everyone. So for now I’ll just continue to love freely and widely, and remind everyone how much I value them x
    Becky Shannon xx – Life-by-Becky

  5. This is such powerful stuff, I really felt it – I had shivers. Thank you for sharing & I’m SO glad you’re finding yourself and that your self confidence is increasing! You’re amazing & you don’t even know it! X

  6. It’s beautiful gorgeous! Honestly I love the way you express yourself. You free yourself, and everything just flows so well. Every emotion and word is poured out so amazingly. It’s a pleasure reading what you post <3

  7. I would like to thank you for the efforts you’ve put in writing this blog. I am hoping the same high-grade website post from you in the upcoming as well. Actually your creative writing abilities has encouraged me to get my own blog now. Actually the blogging is spreading its wings quickly. Your write up is a great example of it.

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