General blog posts | Me & my life

I have something to explain…

By on March 4, 2018

So, it’s been a long time since I last posted on here; so naturally, there is a lot to update on. If you’re not familiar with my blog, or my writing, you may not know that my blog is a positive, safe environment for myself to write my thoughts. To express myself. And to talk about certain topics I wouldn’t normally feel comfortable in talking about.

Nevertheless, I have been gone for a while. Duh. However, I’ve felt like a part of me has been missing for a while. And it’s this blog. So, like any other good ol’ blog post, I’m going to use this space to rant, express, and just update you on what has been going on.

For starters, my mental health took a turn for the worst. I know a lot of people talk about it (yas, we NEED to educate!), and yes, I know it can get repetitive. But I don’t want to hide the facts. I’ve felt extremely alone, tired, marginalised and it’s made me physically ill. Certain situations have occurred that I won’t go in to, and it’s made me have to take a step back. Honestly, it’s been challenging. I’m physically scared about ending up back in the place I was 2 years ago. I’ve been scared to tell anyone about it so I can avoid judgement. It’s been tough, but here I am.

I also forgot to mention that I am in the process of writing my first book. At the start of this year, I made it my main goal to publish my book by the end of this year, and to have all my thoughts, feelings, and emotions to be heard by everyone else. Normally I keep my feelings quite private, but there’s something vulnerable and empowering about sharing my life and my head space with everyone else. From boys, to relationships, to mental health, to empowerment in general. I’m finally becoming proud of my writing, and my quirky personality trait of being able to deeply feel.

Talking of boys, I always like to do a mini section on my blog about what’s going on in that area of my life. If you have read my blog before, you will know that I went through a hard break up nearly 2 years ago, and this blog helped the healing process. I don’t think I ever told you how empowering it felt to totally be over someone, and a situation after so long. About 6 months ago, I realised that those who truly want you in their life will never put themselves in a position to loose you. And I’ve had that countess amount of times. Which leads me onto where I am now.

I am still single, and I have always liked it that way. Even though I like to make out that I’m emotionless, heartless, and don’t feel for anyone… the reality is, I am the total opposite to all of those factors. I do feel. A lot. And that’s why it makes it so hard when it comes to boys & relationships. Yes, I’m extremely cautious. Ultimately, I don’t want to get hurt again. I don’t want another relationship or encounter, to be tossed aside at the end of it and have mind games in between. I simply know what I deserve now, however. And I never like to settle for anything less than that. But at the same time, I need tor realise that there is nothing wrong with feeling emotion for someone else. Because naturally, I make out that none of it matters, when it really does… to me.

I am really good at hiding my feelings. Or at least I think I am. I could really like someone, and I could act like the total opposite. Now, me liking someone is rare as it is. In all honesty, I normally talk to someone for a matter of days, and if I don’t feel in my gut that it’s right, I call it off straight away. And that has been true of pretty much every boy encounter that I’ve had in the past year and a half. I suck when it comes to boys. I am picky, but I also don’t like to settle for second best. It’s not fair on them, or me. But ultimately, I could like you; and then friend zone you right back. It’s like it’s a natural instinct of mine to stop people getting so close to me. And I hurt myself in the process. I like to think I’m confident enough to make the first move, and a good 7 out of 10 times I do. But there’s always those extra 3 situations in which I can’t do it. I’m scared of judgement ultimately, and I think that’s also due to a lack of self confidence. I don’t see myself as anything unique, or special. Rather, as someone that no one would ever want to see in that way. I’m strong, but I’m also vulnerable. And that’s my vulnerable side.

When it comes to friendships, I have begun to realise that I’m better on my own at times. I have a group of amazing friends who I value as individuals, and I like to keep it small and close knit. Anyone else who takes advantage of me, or who isn’t a healthy part of my life anymore will have to stay outside that circle. And as much as that upsets me as I love having people I’m close to, I know it has to be done for my own mind, and for me as a person.

Once again, I know and understand this was a long and rambled post. But would I be me if I did anything less? I’m hoping to post more on here again as I grow mentally stronger, and conquer everything that’s going on at the moment. But in the meantime, I also have a YouTube channel that you can check out if ‘ya like.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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body positivity | Empowerment | General blog posts | Me & my life | Mental health | relationships

Why I’m single

By on August 20, 2017

I don’t know how to start this post in all honesty, so I’m just going to go ahead and do what I do best. Ramble.

I have written a lot of relationship themed posts on here, but nothing like this one. It’s no secret that I spend my life, thinking… and then over-thinking; and tonight was one of those nights. I managed to come to some sort of conclusion as to why I don’t like getting into relationships, seeking relationships, or even speaking to anyone. I simply don’t feel good enough, and I’ll explain why.

Getting into a relationship with someone who has mental health issues is tough, i’ll be first to admit that. And I’m a handful. Despite the fact that I am generally a happy, bubbly and a cheerful person with the most dorky personality- sometimes I can get very sad. Sometimes I can tear into myself. And it’s not fair on anyone else.

I often look back on my days and think, “Did I do that right,” or, “What if I caused more harm than good?” I want to be a positive influence, and a source of change, somehow, but I feel like I’m doing the opposite.

I’ve been in a lot of toxic relationships, including friendships in general. Someone seeing the vulnerable side to me genuinely frightens me, but it’s there. It’s a part of me, yet it doesn’t define me as a person. No, I’m not sad all the time. No I’m not self-conscious all the time. But there’s time’s like this where I am, and I can be.

For years, I’ve struggled with my appearance and feeling comfortable in my own body. I occasionally see myself as a nothingness, I have no unique or ‘stand out’ features. I don’t fit in with the stereotypical idea of beauty, neither do I fit in with the quirky styles of beauty. I occasionally eat, and then regret eating. I look at my features and pin point certain bits that don’t match my own ‘image.’ I tear myself up piece by piece until there is nothing left of me. And I go back to being a ‘nothingness’ again.

Maybe I put myself down too much. But it’s better than anyone else seeing me like this. I am a generally positive person. I laugh. I joke. I occasionally come out with the most wacky things, because I have a weird sort of personality. Most of the time I embrace being me. I embrace my flaws, and my big thighs, puffy hair and completely dodgy eyes. I embrace my fun personality, and how much I lack common sense. But that’s okay. Sometimes, I feel like I need to remind myself that I’m not going to be perfect, never mind be just that for someone else.

Love and happiness always,
xo, Becca

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UD NAKED Heat palette GIVEAWAY!

By on July 30, 2017

Yes… you read the title right. I am giving away the new Urban Decay Naked Heat palette to one lucky winner.

This palette has been raved about so much over the past couple of months, and is already sold out on the official Urban Decay website. Retailing at £39.50, this palette includes 12 all new warm-toned shades which is enough to fire up any outfit.

Among the 12 shades, it features “warm browns, burnt oranges and rich siennas.” What makes this palette even better is the fact that it includes both matte and shimmer shades adding a bit of dazzle to any look.

To win this palette, all you need to do is subscribe to my YouTube channel here, and my vlogging channel here.

Do not forget to also enter via this form  as this is how a winner is going to be randomly selected, and RT this tweet.

Winners will be randomly selected, and the giveaway ends at 00:00am BST on the 31st August 2017. Full terms and conditions will be listed below… good luck!

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

Terms and conditions:

Giveaway ends 31st August 2017 at 00:00am BST. **Open residents of the UK only.** Winner will have 48 hours to respond to the giveaway- failure to respond will result in another winner. Winners are chosen completely at random. All entrants must follow all the rules described- not doing this may result in disqualification. The product offered for the giveaway is free of charge, no purchase necessary. My opinions are my own and were not influenced by any form of compensation. Facebook, Twitter and Google+ are in no way associated with this giveaway. By providing your information in this form, you are providing your information to me and me alone. I do not share or sell information and will use any information only for the purpose of contacting the winner. All entrants under 18 years of age must ask for parent / guardians permission.

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General blog posts | Hauls

Home-wear inspiration

By on July 19, 2017

The excitement of last pay-day also came with the need to buy new, and cute, home-wear items for my bedroom. I felt like a fresh start with my room- and decided to splash out on last months wages so I could get the exact aesthetic I desired.

As well as purchasing a new 3-tier clothes rail for my bedroom, I also added a few extra touches onto the shelves to give my room that extra ‘Insta-worthy’ vibe. For this, I purchased two copper items from Primark as pictured below. For only £3.50, the diamond shaped candle holder seems so simple but so effective at the same time. To add to it, I also purchased a artificial plant for £3 (I don’t trust myself to look after a real one!), and the two together fit perfectly. In addition to the grey background on my clothes rail, all the colours seem to compliment each other… stage one complete.

Next up, I purchased a white and silver photo frame from Home Sense for £6.50… yes only six pounds fifty! What makes it even better is that the photo frame already came with a print inside it, which was my whole purpose for buying a frame in the first place. I feel as though the quote, “It’s the little things” adds a little bit of ‘inspiration’ to my room; and I especially love having these types of quotes dotted round my room as motivation. This now sits on my bedside table alongside (another) artificial plant and my copper base lamp.

The lamp was actually purchased from Dunelm, and is one that I have had my eye on for a while. The copper base fits with the colour scheme that I have going on in my bedroom right now, but also includes a black shade as a nice contrast. Oh, and another bonus is that I actually found the right light bulb to match the lamp by myself without blowing it up (oops). The lamp retails at £19 and can be purchased here.

The next addition to my “new and improved” bedroom is also courtesy of Dunelm. herehereAfter spending hours (yes, hours) trying to search for the right cushion to make my bed that extra bit comfy, I came across this little gem pictured below. The pineapple pillow offers an extra bit of ‘summer’ to my room and adds to the whole modern theme as well as looking extra cute on my bed. I normally style this cushion in front of my two other big ones and it is a lifesaver when it comes to editing my YouTube videos and writing blog posts. Although it retails at £14, it is extra comfy… plus, who doesn’t love a good pineapple home-wear accessory?! The cushion is now available online .

Overall, I am loving how modern and homely my bedroom feels. I am so glad that I have managed to de-clutter everything and invest in some items which make my bedroom really feel like my own. What was your favourite piece from this mini haul? Make sure to drop a comment down below!

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

Note: This post is not sponsored and all opinions are my own.

Also, please bare with my photography at the moment. I have just purchased a new camera, and am still getting used to it / the lighting etc. Hehe. xo

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Blogging: One year on

By on July 9, 2017

I never in a million years thought I would ever be able to have said that I have been blogging for one whole year, yet here we are. Considering the fact that I initially started my blog to get over a break-up and to find peace within myself, I am incredibly proud of how much my little space on the internet has grown into my own.

I remember sitting at my old computer at 10pm at night writing a whole rambling blog post about relationships, and hurt, and anything that managed to pour out of that head of mine that night. I remember thinking, ‘you know what, I’ll probably write one blog post and forget about this’…. and I didn’t. 365 days later and I’m still writing.

As much as a lot of Bloggers say this, I genuinely never thought anyone would read anything I published on here. I never imagined people to interact with me as a person, or read one of my blog posts and be like, ‘you know what? I agree with her.’ It’s because of blogging that I have grown in confidence, and as a person (ok, I know that sounds like a cliche, but it’s true).

I have never really had a ‘hobby’ as such that I’ve managed to stick at. I’ve always loved writing and ‘producing content,’ but never as much as I have this past year. It’s been such a whirlwind of an experience, and I can proudly say that, despite the lack of inspiration at times and wanting to give up, I actually enjoy blogging as a hobby. Because it’s a lot more than ‘being sent free stuff to review,’ or ‘sponsored posts,’ it’s something I genuinely love and vibe off. Note: if you’re thinking about blogging, don’t do it for the wrong reasons. Blog because you have a passion for the content you create, and you will love it a whole lot more.

And finally, I would like to dedicate this blog post to one of the most amazing, inspiring and strong people I have ever met- Em. If you don’t know Em, she was a blogger who I am proud to also call one of my friends. Because the thing about blogging is that you are part of a community full of real people, with real lives, and real feelings. Em courageously battled cancer for years before sadly passing away a couple of weeks ago, so I wanted to dedicate this blog post in her memory- because Blogging allowed me to meet Em and call her a friend. It’s a lot bigger than I ever  imagined it to be.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to anyone who has ever taken the time to read any of my blog posts, or supported my blog in any way. I am so humbled and grateful… and still find it incredibly crazy (in a good way, of course).

Here’s to another year of rambling blog posts, kicking anxieties ass, and writing about my favourite things.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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The Blogging apps you NEED

By on June 21, 2017

I have been Blogging for a year now in July *gasp,* and in that time, I have come across some helpful apps that has saved my Blogging life. Saved as in, I genuinely would be lost without them. I never normally write posts like this, but I have become extremely inspired to share with you my top Blogging apps and why they just so happen to me my faves…. in no particular order.

1. Instagram

I think this one is a must for most Bloggers, but I genuinely don’t know what I would do without my ‘Blogging Instagram.’ Although it’s extremely stressful trying to uphold that ‘perfect’ theme, and take the right ‘Blogger perfect’ pictures (even though there is no such thing), this has been my absolute saviour when it comes to promoting my blog. I have also found that using hashtags is also a useful way in order to promote your posts and boost your likes as well as blog promotion. These include your blogging ‘niche’ i.e. (#fashionblogger, #beautyblogger, #lifestyleblogger), the ordinary #blogger hashtag and of course the good old, #britishblogger / #Blogger

2. Twitter

We’ll move onto the main reason as to why Twitter is your blogging lifesaver in just a minute, but I don’t think I could talk about Twitter being essential to your blog without mentioning Blogger chats. If you’re a hardcore Blogger on Twitter, you may be aware that Twitter chats are always talked about in terms of promoting you and your blog. But that’s not the best part. They help you engage with the Blogging community, meet new people, and just overall have a good ol’ chinwag. What’s not to love?

3. Buffer / Crowdfire

I told you I would get to it…. when I think about using Twitter as a platform for promoting my blog, I also think about Buffer. Buffer is an app in which let’s you schedule tweets so you can promote your blog links without actually needing to be online. Cool right? You could be sat on your sofa with a brew and toast, or even at work, and Buffer will tweet your scheduled tweets for you without you having to do a thing. I’ve found that when I don’t have time to go on Twitter or tweet, Buffer allows me to have my Twitter being continuously active even if I’m not. Oh, and one more top tip. Make sure to use community hashtags in your blog post link tweets in order to get the most exposure. I am part of a cool #GRLPOWR community which RTs tweets daily- and I also love to use #beechat, @BloggersTribe, @FemaleBloggerRT, #thegirlgang #blogginggals, #fblchat, #lbloggers and #teacupclub only to name a few.

4. Bloglovin’

When I first joined the Blogging community, everyone used to rave about Bloglovin’ and how it was absolutely essential that you used it alongside your blog. For anyone who still isn’t 100% sure on what Bloglovin’ is, it’s an app which connects to your Blog and basically posts your blog posts onto your Bloglovin feed. What makes it even better is that people can follow your Bloglovin page, and so keep up to date every time you post. You can also follow your favourite posts, search hashtags and read blog posts straight from the Bloglovin’ homepage. It’s basically the blogging community all in one place, and extra promotion for your content.

5. Snapchat

Now, this may work for some Bloggers; but it may also not work for others. For me, I love snapping as a side ‘activity’ to my blog if you like. It gives my readers a chance to see a different, more quirky side to me that maybe doesn’t come across in my writing… or maybe it does, I’m a weirdo so who knows. However, Snapchat also allows you to document your daily life, and snap every time a new post goes live. Even if that means a 10 second video of you updating your readers, or doing mini hauls as a sneak peak before you actually do a blog post on it. You get my vibe.

6. Photo editing apps

And last, but certainly not least, we all love a good photo editing app in our lives. When it comes to creating the best Instagram feed, or just editing your blog pictures in general; photo editing apps normally sort me out. They give me the freedom to adjust picture quality, brightness, saturation etc if the picture I’ve taken isn’t just right. Technology in 2017 eh? Here are a couple of my favourites below:

  • Layout
  • VSCO Cam
  • Afterlight (my holy grail).

Do you have any other Blogging must-have apps that I haven’t included above? If so, make sure to share them in the comment box below!

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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Is going self-hosted worth it?

By on June 14, 2017

Since I initially started my blog last July, one thing in which I kept “um’ing” and “ah’ing” at was whether I should take the ultimate Blogging plunge and go self-hosted or not. Granted, I tried to go self-hosted last October with Go Daddy, but that quickly fell through and it is safe to say I would never use them again… never mind their customer service.

A few months later, and I decided to take the plunge again. As much as I felt comfortable with using wordpress.com, their features just weren’t enough for me anymore. I desperately wanted control over my own theme, how my blog looked, being able to use Google Analytics, and overall just taking my blog to the next level.

After searching the internet for hours (yes, hours), I decided to use site ground. A lot of other Bloggers I knew also used them for their self-hosted Blog and what’s even better is that they offer 24/7 customer service and their prices are reasonable. They literally set up everything for me, and I didn’t have to do anything myself. I literally sat there with my brew and watched my Blog transform into something I’ve always wanted. What’s even better is that they migrated my existing wordpress.com site over to my new wordpress.org self-hosted site for free (unlike ‘Go Daddy’ who tried to charge me extra… sigh).

It sounds so perfect, right? So is there any negatives to going self-hosted? As much as going self-hosted is amazing, affordable, and really gives you the opportunity to customise your blog how you want, there are a couple of contrary pointers. For example, my statistics have gone back to 0 so all my previous views that I worked hard on have totally vanished. With that also comes new blog followers, but I couldn’t transfer my old one’s onto my new blog. As much as I was a bit disheartened by this, you can easily build your Blog back up again. With added customisation, your Blog has improved in itself by going self-hosted and followers and views will follow.

If you don’t know who to pick to go self-hosted with, I would definitely recommend ‘Site Ground,’ and no I am not being paid to recommend them so all opinions are 100% my own. Their customer service is fantastic, and even when I was mega stressed out with the whole migration process, their help and guidance made it so much easier on me- I felt like I wasn’t going round in circles! Their plans also start at £2.75 / month so you can’t really go wrong with the price.

Web Hosting

So, the question is… is going self-hosted really worth it? When it comes to improving my Blog and my content, I seriously think going self-hosted was one of the best things I ever did. As much as I tried to put it off and as much as I got stressed over it, I have never been so happy with my blog look or my Blog in general… what have you got to loose?!

You can check out ‘Site Ground’s’ self hosted plans and browse their website by clicking here.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

Note: This blog post was not sponsored, all opinions are my own. The links provided are in partnership with my affiliate link with site ground which helps keep my blog running. 

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Am I the same blogger?

By on April 26, 2017

For a while now, i have been agitated with my blog, what I blog about and just everything I post and do on here. I feel like every blogger goes through those times where they feel no motivation to post, or hate their theme and desperately need a change but they just don’t know how.

The truth is, I’ve always wanted to be an organic and unique blogger. I’ve always wanted my content to separate itself from everyone else’s in the industry, for the simple fact that it’s a reflection of my thoughts. ‘ItsBeccaJayne’ is called itsbeccajayne, because it’s me. It’s what I think about. It’s what I feel. It’s everything that I need to get out in the open, and people just so happen to stumble across my content and relate to it which is a humbling bonus.

However, itsbeccajayne shares many other aspects of myself which I also want to express on this blog. I like make-up. I like the excitement of buying new products and wanting to tell the world over what beauty ‘must haves’ I’m lusting over. But that doesn’t necessarily make me a beauty blogger. I love fashion, and always have. I love experimenting with styles suited to each season, and telling the world about my favourite outfit of the day. But that doesn’t necessarily mean I’m a fashion blogger either.

The thing with blogging is that a lot of people feel like they have to fit into ‘one’ blogger category, and for a while, I thought I did too. I was worried that my readers would grow to dislike my blog if I blogged about other stuff I loved, or if diversity isn’t what they wanted. I didn’t want to blog about beauty or fashion, because I felt like I would have to separate myself from a ‘lifestyle blog’ to a beauty or fashion blog.

In reality, I am either all of those, or none of those. The fact of the matter is that it doesn’t really matter. I am me. And that’s what itsbeccajayne is. It’s everything I love, and everything I feel, congregated into one place on the internet. From make-up, to fashion, to mental health, to just general posts about life or whatever goes on in that head of mine. I don’t want to feel constrained on my blog anymore, nor do I want to let any of my readers down.

The question I asked in the title of the post still stands, however. Am I the same blogger I was 6 months ago? Am I the same blogger I was when I first started? Yes, and no. I am the same person, and I still love all the same things- I just never expressed the love for it on my blog back then. I feel as though my blog is growing with my interests. As I become more interested in things, I want to blog about them. I want to express my excitement; but I also want to blog about the same old things I’ve always blogged about. From ranting posts, to thoughts, to educating on mental health and Feminism. I want everything I blog about on here to be a reflection of me. That’s why it’s called itsbeccajayne. Because who I am is everything I blog about on here.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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When 'no' means 'no.'

By on April 12, 2017


I have recently seen a lot of people address this topic, and with myself going on a rant about this on Twitter the other week, I thought it would be fitting to engage my anger further in a blog post…

We seem to use the excuse, “boys will be boys” a lot when we talk about groping or touching women without consent. After turning 18 and going out ‘clubbing’ more, this has been an issue in which I have experienced personally- and overall disgusts me. Not just for my own personal space, but for other women too.

Being groped or touched without consent is extremely intimidating, vile, and above all; a violation on my own body. We seem to teach women that we should be ‘flattered’ by such behaviour because ‘we should like the male attention.’ But what if I don’t want male attention? Especially uncalled for attention. Because the thing is, it’s not just me. It’s my friends. It’s every other woman in the same room as me. It’s every other woman who may feel intimidated by such behaviour.

It’s 2017, and some men can’t take no for an answer. Either that or they go off on one.. “I didn’t want you anyway, it was only a bit of fun.” Well guess what? I didn’t want your ugly ass either but you still tried to give it to me. I don’t care if you’re drunk, off your face or anything in between. It’s time we stopped normalising groping or touching without consent and putting it down to ‘boys just being boys.’ Because where’s the progress?

I should not have to pretend that I have a boyfriend for you to stop touching me like you respect your male peers more than an innocent woman. I should not have to tell you to f**k off away from me because you can’t take no for an answer. I shouldn’t be put into a position where I, or anyone else, feels intimidated because a man can’t take no for an answer and then get abuse because I knocked him back. Once again, forgot your ego was more important than my own body.

I know this was a post full of pure ranting, but after seeing people address a similar issue; I felt like I needed to vent my anger out there. It’s sad that in 2017, I have to write a post about some men not taking ‘no’ for an answer because they feel like they have the right to touch me without consent. Reality check, you don’t and I will put you in your place if you do.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

 

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Why I hate modern day dating

By on March 25, 2017


It’s been a while since I have done a ‘relationships’ themed blog post, but something has been stuck on my mind on repeat for a few weeks now which has to have it’s own escape.

It’s no secret that I suck when it comes to boys. I don’t know if it’s because I’m so stubborn that I would rather ‘keep myself to myself’ rather than let a boy even talk to me, or because I simply don’t believe anyone could be genuinely interested in me.

But you know, on them odd occasions where I do let someone in, the whole dating / texting thing annoys the shit out of me. All the games. How nothing is as simple as, “Hey, want to go for coffee sometime?” I like straight to the point. I like people who show interest because I always think the opposite.

Sure, the chase is fun. I like being able to chase someone, and have someone chase me. Dating is a game at the end of the day, but do I really want to play it? The fact that it is almost ‘forbidden’ to text someone back straight away because you’re seen as ‘too keen.’ Nah, I just happened to have my phone on me at the time. Just like if I don’t text you back after 3 hours, I was probably busy living my life.

Everything is so casual. It takes a lot for me to admit I like someone in that way (mainly because I’m too independent and stubborn for my own good), but when I do- it’s just another game. God forbid you text someone for weeks on end and you’re not allowed to have feelings. God forbid that you spend your time on texting someone, when at the end of it all, you’re the ‘crazy’ one for catching feelings- because it’s just harmless fun, right? It feels like dating is a mockery and it utterly angers me how people are shamed so much.

Look at break-ups for example. I seemed to have ‘forgotten’ that even though I got cheated on and hurt, I can’t actually show any emotion. I mean why do people hurt after break-ups anyway- just move on. Lol. That was clearly sarcastic, but you get my point. Let yourself fucking hurt, and then let yourself heal into a better person. And I am not ashamed that I have done just that. So fuck you to anyone who watched me hurt and rolled their eyes. Who cares? We’re all just emotionless robots, aren’t we? *rolls eyes.*

Well, it inspired this blog so there’s that.

And I guess that’s why I hate dating / talking / texting / anything relationship orientated. I . just . can’t . do . it . The pathetic games, the laughs when you get hurt. It all doesn’t seem worth it to loose myself in the process. Maybe I’m too stubborn. Maybe I’ll die single. But I’d rather be single then be caught up in constant games.

Love and happiness always,

xo, Becca

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