This post was, and is, extremely spontaneous to write. After being in a deep thinking mood for the most parts of today, I suddenly came up with this blog post idea. The kind of ideas that I have been wanting to write about for a few months now, but didn’t quite know how.
There are always going to be people who drift in and out of your life, and one person in particular comes to mind when I reflect on this concept of letting people grow. This is someone who is still becoming their own person and still trying to work out what they want out of life.
I’m hesitant to restrain from not saying anything on this matter, because I have been wanting to write about this for a while now. Nevertheless, in the time I knew this person, I was more than happy to give them space to grow. Space to find themselves and who they were, and be there every step of the way. It wasn’t because I felt like I should’ve been obliged to be there; rather that I wanted to.
I cared, and still care, for this person immensely. It’s the kind of care in which you don’t know why it’s such a strong emotion, but it just is. There’s just something, and I still haven’t put my finger to it yet (even 9 months later). Me caring about them also means that I care about who they turn into, and how their growth may be going.
Honestly, I don’t know where this person is at in their life at the moment. I seem to have a clear idea because I seem to know this person better than they even know themselves. The fact of the matter is that it’s always been about them. It’s always been about me wanting to simply be there and try to keep them in track, but also give them room to grow.
I feel like I have been through a lot with this person, both emotionally and in my own growth. I don’t know if they will ever realise the extent in which I care about them, or the extent in which I want to watch them grow into the person that I know they have potential to be. None of this is for my sake, rather because when you love someone, suddenly everything becomes selfless; with this being one of them kinds of moments.
Who knows if this person will ever stumble across this post, but if for some reason they do; it’s good for them to be reminded that even through everything, they have someone who will always care about them unconditionally and selflessly. That this is the sort of person that I’ll think about now and then and hope and pray that they’re living the best life they can. That they live a life full of happiness, even if I’m not part of it. And I guess that’s what I mean by loving and caring about someone selflessly; I don’t have to be in their life to care. I don’t want anything from it- rather, I just want them to become who they’re meant to be and continue to grow into exactly that.
They seriously have the potential to, and after everything I will continue to defend this person. I ultimately see something in them in which a lot of people fail to see. That behind everything, there is someone genuine, loving and caring. Sometimes the most upsetting thing about it all is that they don’t see how glorious and amazing they are. And that’s just it, that’s the whole point of it. Because they are a wonderful human being and no matter what anyone says, they will find the confidence to become just that in their own growth. And what’s even more is that I’ll still be there in the background, even if I’m not going to be apart of their growth directly.
Love and happiness always,
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